Expectations

While studying and working abroad I am constantly meeting different people from all over the world. And after getting to know better some of them it is interesting to observe and see how some people define expectations for others but when it comes to them these expectations do not apply. They expect certain behavior form others and if it is not happeningContinue reading “Expectations”

Somewhere in between

I feel like I am somewhere on the way up but I am struggling to move forward. I just feel like I am somehow stuck in myself and not being able to completely get out of my old thinking way. To get out of my prison of not trusting myself, doubting and fearing if I will make theContinue reading “Somewhere in between”

The Light

You’ll achieve your aims when you leave the darkness behind, and agree to become the light. If my mind has decided to become the light but my heart still is locked in fear and hiding behind the darkness. When there are no big changes coming my way I somehow keep a bit above the darknessContinue reading “The Light”

One day = Today

Since I remember myself I have always lived with a thought that one day I will be living my best life, I will have the job I love and everything will be perfect. I just need to little bit wait and this day will come. No matter if I was in Latvia or now inContinue reading “One day = Today”

My own bully

These last few days have been quite challenging regarding my thinking way. I have been struggling a bit to have a clear and rational thoughts about myself. Even though I do not have a reason to be so hard on myself but I was not able to get back on the good side. And having these self made restrictionsContinue reading “My own bully”

Speaking up

Yesterday I thought I had enough push to speak up for myself and ask for some explanations. I thought I am well prepared and I knew the things I will say and how I will argument my reasons. I promised myself that until my 30th birthday I will be treating myself much better and basicallyContinue reading “Speaking up”

Myself

How to win myself back in moments when everything seems so hopeless and empty within? Even though nothing so bad has happened to welcome this feeling but fighting this force feels so impossible. And somehow positive self-talk also is not working… It does not reach my heart completely and I am here sitting wrapped in my emotions and thoughts whichContinue reading “Myself”

One evening

Fear has always been valuable in my life. Without fear, without doubt, without discomfort in what we are doing, what is there for any of us to overcome? Serena Williams Even though I would like to not feel any fear at all but looking back to things I have accomplished and where I am nowContinue reading “One evening”

Before the move

For me to come to first realizations about myself and how I am working as a person I needed over 20 years and still ongoing. But I never understood quite well that realizing and thinking I know what to do and really working on myself is two different things. That only with realizing I will notContinue reading “Before the move”